When you were here before Couldn't look you in the eye You're just like an angel Your skin makes me cry You float like a feather In a beautiful world And I wish I was special You're so fuckin' special But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here. I don't care if it hurts I want to have control I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul want you to notice When I'm not around You're so fuckin special I wish I was special But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here. She's running out again, She's running out She's run run run running out...Whatever makes you happy Whatever you want You're so fuckin' special I wish I was special...But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo, What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here. I don't belong here.

Pretty much my song. Those are the lyrics to Creep by Radiohead.

Something isn't right, and I can feel it. It's never a good sign when I start going into one of my quiet moods, which started today. I just don't want to be around people right now. I really have no idea what triggers these moods. I'll be perfectly fine and semi happy then BAM! out of nowhere I'm depressed beyond belief for no reason really.

There are some things that have undergone the snowball effect.

1. I find myself in a very weird situation with some guys. I know eventually I'll have to pick one. But thankfully I'm single and I can put things off as long as possible. Although, P. has kinda faded into the background, and things with K. have started to heat up (wow I don't what it is with me and finding guys in other states...not to mention he's a close friend).

2. Things have gotten really bad for my family because of the falling Economy. But I'm sure a lot of people are feeling the same way. The problem is now that we could lose the house. My dad is a tough man, but to see him sit there and cry was hard to see.

3. I'm about to break.